A hard situation to deal with. Even if you show the strongest self restraint and don't text or otherwise contact the person of your affections the anxiety builds up, and may come out when you do get together in anger or crying. I guess it depends. I know you have medical support, which I found extremely necessary, but do you have persona support too? First does your guy understand and actively try to help? Secondly do you have anyone, family or friend perhaps, to talk with and know you will not be judged but just cared for?